I think about you the way you think about a meal you’ve been waiting for all day.
Low agonizing ache in the dark,
a craving that pulls at the pit of my stomach.
I want to sit across from you,
watch your mouth move,
and think about what I would do with your mouth.
I want to know what you are like
when no one is looking.
I want to know what you are like
split open.
Let me be close.
Closer.
Till I could feel your heartbeat beneath my skin.
I have been so careful with you—
run my hands along every part you let me touch
and all the parts you didn’t.
The sound your body makes under pressure.
Every small gesture,
every soft place you tried to keep from me.
Exactly how much it takes,
to make you go quiet.
The smell of you is different now,
but God,
I don’t mind.
The overwhelming scent of two bodies colliding.
It hangs in the air between us like a secret,
perfuming the very walls of this room,
warm, breathless, and beautifully ruined.
I have always loved you best like this—
quiet,
finally still,
finally only mine.
Just the slow, rhythmic giving in to the urge, sliding deeper into the heat of you until we melt together.
Exhausted, trembling, and entirely undone beneath me.
This is the most honest I have ever been with anyone.
I am eating well for the first time in years.
A hunger that consumes us both in the dark,
suffocating rush that leaves no place between us.
I set a place for you at the table.
You’re already here,
inside me,
the way i always wanted to be
inside you.
I finally feel full.
Ditulis oleh Raisa Azumi
Diedit oleh Diandra Wafiyatunnisa
Didesain oleh Fahira Khairunisa